visvim PFD 3L leather detail
Went to go grab a beer, came back to this… Majestic as fuck.
Rubik’s Cube for the Blind by Konstantin Datz
so much sass
tonight i am going to rant. 1. why is home so far away? i look at friends studying/working abroad and some of them are so close they can fly home in no time (even 8 hours is no time compared to 1.5-2 days of travel - please dont even get me started) and even if they cant fly home, their family & friends can fly over in (again) no time. of course i would want to go home for christmas, of course i would want to hug my mum and my best friend and be home again, with the people i love. but one week is not enough time for that. i would end up tiring myself trying to meet w everyone and then feel bad when i cant (because they would be asking why i didn’t meet up if i was back). i spent the entire last month in singapore meeting up w family and friends. i was so tired; I dont regret it, but still it wasn’t enough time to meet w everyone. i don’t think i want to leave sgp feeling like i left my heart back home (because it wasn’t enough time) and then fly back to baltimore (which takes another 1.5-2 days), jet lagged, combined w a severe state of homesickness. i foresee myself breaking down at that point. grad school has no room for breakdowns. which is why i plan to work extremely hard and take longer breaks to have a happy restful visit home. 2. why am i born a girl - always having to worry about my safety and even if i dont, having my parents worry just because i physically weaker and because some guys are horny idiots who cannot control themselves and have no brains+morals. i want to do so many things but i can’t because of “safety”. why just why? i want to go to NC and have fun w S & M and forget about everything sad and bad and just have fun. for once in my life forget about everything i used to be so nitpicky about and let myself go.